Lately I have been very stressed and depressed. I want to be done with school, but at the same time I think that I am afraid that I will be. I have always loved music and wanted to do something in music, but somewhere along the way I was convinced that it would not be a viable career option. My current major if accounting, which I sort of enjoy because I can do it well, but is this what I want to do with the rest of my life? It seems like I am too far to turn back.
A friend of mine suggested that I take up a music minor, or at least signup for a voice class, but I wonder if that would only make me want more of what I cannot have. And also classes are expensive; would I be spending the money for entertainment, or would I be saving my self from a mistake? In combination with another issue I am struggling with; how long (how many things) can I deny my heart?
On a brighter note tonight is the dress rehearsal for my choir concert. I have been involved in the East Texas Community Chorus and our concert will be tomorrow night. We will be performing pieces by Bach, Handel and Charpentier. I have really enjoyed being challenged and have had a lot of fun practicing, so I am sad that it will be over, but I am really itching for perform on stage again.